Can’t convince myself

Sometimes I feel so stupid,
I blame myself for giving up with you,
I blame myself for trusting again in someone,
for trusting in you.

Right in the moment I just don’t need a thing,
you come along changing my world,
undermining all my certainties.

I was alone,
in the shadows of my heart,
taking care of the person I wanted to be,
Had no will to fall,
but you smile changed it all.

It was more that I wanted,
I tried to escape,
Myself was hiding behind,
I didn’t mean to open my world,
I didn’t mean to show you the real me.

But you came,
you cared,
you made your way through the dark,
you made your way to my inner smile,
to the one I was trying to protect.

You showed me how to rise again,
You promised me,
You gave me anything I needed,
but it was everything I had to avoid.

Once I believed in you,
As I believed in you,
you broke me,
I’ve fallen apart,
I fall apart,
I am falling apart.

Can’t convince myself I need to move on,
Can’t convince myself our thing has come to an end,
Can’t convince myself nothing will ever happen again,

I feel so stupid…